Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Start with my hands
 and pull my body close
Touch your lips to mine
It's your kiss I miss most.

Tease my neck
with your warm tongue
It's this sweet spot
that has me sprung.

Find your way down
To the mounds you love to caress
Soft, supple - Sensitive
Here - I give you my breasts.

They crave a squeeze
Your hands, your lips
Sensations take over my body
Down past my hips.

Taste me with your tongue
Let it roam free
Glide it to my navel
But it's inside my thighs you should be.

Grab them with your hands
And hoist me towards you
My body is yours to please
Tell me - do you like the view?

Come quickly to my core
Don't let it waste
I promise I'll be sweet
So please have a taste.

Don't move on too quickly
I want you to feast
I want to feel the pressure
I need to feel the beast.

Make me tremble
With your mere presence
Fill me up
With your sweet essence.

Please don't stop now
You're taking me over the edge
I promise to reciprocate
This I pledge.

I've reached my melting point
Now it's time to return the favor
Just lie on your back
So this feeling you can savor...


Sunday, April 14, 2013

Everywhere

Up in the sky to search among the stars,
Right here on Earth, may as well be on Mars.
Down tree-lined sidewalks in the sun's light,
Up shadowed corridors in the darkest of night.

Why do you escape me, when I search so earnestly?


With a magnifying glass and then from a mountain top,

I will not break, I will not stop.
Beneath wool blankets and behind lead doors,
As I seek you, I crave you more and more.

Why do you evade me, when I search so persistently?


Even among tree branches and underneath mossy rocks,

If it leads to finding you, I'd consider picking locks.
Up-down-all around, my strength will not last,
I'm growing inpatient, I need you here fast.

Why do you eclipse me, when I search so desperately?


My will has now weakened, and my eyes are quite sore,

Even my heart is aching, and my legs can walk no more.
I've come to question my reason, my desire for you,
There's nowhere left to look, nothing more to do.

Why do I search so fervently, when you're here right beside me?

Friday, April 5, 2013


My stomach is in knots and my body is quite tense
When can I breathe, let down my defense.
Is it safe to let go, to open my heart
Or better yet wait, for this too shall part.

Could this be it, could this be true
Could I have stumbled and fallen right onto you?
My heart flutters in great anticipation
For a mere possibility of a state of elation.

I've waited so long and tried my best
To keep it safe and guarded from the rest.
Pieces have been scraped, but it’s merely the corners
The core remains in tact– no reason to mourn her.

Here– take this heart, as it clearly belongs to you
I've held on to it long enough, and my body will no longer do.
Never shall I want it back, as it’s yours for eternity  
All I ask in return is the heart you've held for me.


Sunday, March 31, 2013


It was you.
Every movement, every gesture
Your hair, even your  mustache.
You've remained the same.
It’s funny – the things you’re doing
It’s late, but you’re making ponche.
You smile like a soul unburdened.
I look at you
And see love shining through you.
That love keeps me warm.
What would I do without you
My anchor, my love.
I enjoyed our time today
I wish you could stay a while longer.
It was nice seeing your face
To see your smile again.
Even though I cried once I awakened
It was nice, if only for a moment –
To be in a world where you still existed.



Yesterday I cried in my sleep
I didn't dream, I just cried.
He’s gone. He’s gone. He’s gone.
I’m gone.

I’m not angry anymore
I just hurt.
Like a bruise that seeps past my skin
And into my bones.
I hurt.

I see him as if nothing happened
Happy, having fun, smiling –
in my dreams.

He left a disaster behind him
He left us scrambling to pick up
Pieces of broken glass
Pieces too shattered to put back together
Never to regain its former self – our former selves.

How am I suppose to move on?
You were all of  me
My heart. My love. My motivation.
Why try to put pieces together
When the main part is gone.

I just want to hold your hand.
To touch you. To feel you.
He’s gone. He’s gone. He’s gone.
I’m gone.

I’m not angry anymore.
I just hurt.
No. I’m hurt. I’m angry.
Angry at death for existing.
Angry at death for not passing you by.
Angry at myself for thinking I had forever.


Wednesday, March 20, 2013

He Said...


He said I have a way
of calming him down
Bringing peace to the chaos
he’s usually around.
He said I have a way
of settling his worries
Showing him the light
when his sight gets blurry.
He said I have a touch
that reaches beneath his skin
That transforms his body
to forget the world he’s in.
He said I have this feel
that cannot compare
The possibility of its existence
he was never aware.
He said I have a voice
so soothing he melts
Stirring in him a longing
never before has he felt.
He said I have these eyes
not wooing, but magnetizing
They make him yearn to know the depths
so he sits– wondering, analyzing.
He said. He said
no other one will suffice
I must be his alone
no other man shall I entice.




Let me show you what it's like
To share a love that feels just right.
Let me show you this transcending feeling
Your heart racing, its intentions revealing.
Let me show you how surreal
My love can be once revealed.
Take my hand, I'll show you the way
Every inch of my body, to do as you may.
Take my heart, warm and inviting
It holds the power of passion inciting.
Let us marvel in delight
How with a kiss love will ignite.
A passion that moves like thunder
And leads your own logic to wonder.
I've offered you all of me– body and soul
It's now in your hands to determine your role.



He has changed me and he doesn't even know it
He has enlightened me, and doesn't have a clue
His gift to me-- possibility

Possibility of a greater future
I strive to be better, to do better
I push to change, to grow, to conquer
I aim to fill the voids in my life
To push against doors I never knew existed

Possibility of a greater love
He fits me like a glove-his thoughts, his desires
Our passions- mirror images of one another
Our wants- cousins, sitting hand in hand

He has changed my perception of my needs and desires
Has made me see the possibilities -at arms reach

A catalyst in my life, awakening a new hope
He has influenced me more than he could imagine

Yet, I've never even heard his voice.


Friday, March 15, 2013

Today


Today is merely one of those days
Cast in a dark cloud, no sign of sun rays
I yearn for another to aid me in my fight
To hold my hand in these darkest nights
I long for someone whose shoulder is strong
We can lean on each other, however long
A famine has struck deep within my core
I hunger for that connection, affection-- and even more
I thirst for devotion, protection- a man who’s sure
That his heart is pure and my condition it will cure
For my illness is not of flesh and bones
But of my spirit, my soul-- depths unknown
I try to subdue it, but in my heart it stays
Today is merely one of those days


Thursday, March 14, 2013


Help me up
from this despair

Help me up
don’t you see I am drowning

Pull me up
with all of your might

Pull me up
beneath my smile I am frowning

Do not take my hand
that will not do

Do not mind my flesh
it is my heart that needs you

Inside is darkness
no beginning, no end

I need you, I need you
my lover, my friend.

NOTE: I wrote this poem a while ago, and it's incomplete. I tried to finish where I left off, but was not able to since I am no longer in that moment.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Human Nature?


It’s human nature to desire a glance interlaced.
But is it boorish to rather a warm embrace?
I want to lure you with my gaze
Until you bring your body close, to burn me with its rays.

It’s human nature to desire a warm embrace
But is it boorish to prefer a taste?
I want to relish your sweet essence               
Bask in your scent, rapt in your presence.

It’s human nature to desire a taste
But is it boorish to wish for it overflowing in haste?
It’s your affections that dawn my longing for you
Your heart, your core—our passions ensue.

It’s human nature to desire….a gaze. an embrace. a taste.
But is it boorish to yearn for a love once defaced?



Friday, March 8, 2013



Hand in hand is what i desire
A love ever enduring blazing with fire
Two becoming one how romantic a notion
Can it ever be or is it merely a childish emotion?
What I desire is everlasting- ever burning ever changing--yet everlasting
It is for that I am fighting- for that I am grasping
Is there another who shares my perception,
Who yearns for that ardent bond and not constant deception?
Crushed and abandoned, Once afraid to open my heart
With my deep emotions I would never part
I held on to my love, no longer would I share it
No one was deserving, gentle enough to cherish it
Instead, i gave of my being, for that hurt less
Simply a moment in time filled with a sweet caress.
Passions ignited, shallow at best
Never enough to put my yearning to rest.
No longer could I ignore my heart's muffled cries
It needed substance, or else prolong my internal demise.
The love I harbored inside fought to escape
It was too strong of a love, too deep to sit and wait
It yearned to share all it possessed inside
To give of itself, for its passion it could not hide.
I now realize my love is too much to hoard
Living without loving-- I simply cannot afford
My passion--- stronger than the past, stronger than the pain.
Holds on to faith and sees through the rain
As the sun and moon fade, my delicate heart it is molding
Everlasting ever growing ever sharing, not withholding
I know not what life has in store,
Yet giving of my love I shall remain, forever more...


Monday, March 7, 2011




Ode to You


I thought we'd be like this forever
You and I-- take on the world together.
Thought we'd conquer and succeed
Neither my heart nor yours would bleed.
I never imagined you and I
Fighting--an eye for an eye.
I would never believe we'd end up like this
With our backs against each other--or fist to fist.
I cannot erase the pain you feel inside
And from that guilt I cannot hide.
I want to turn back time to the way it was
To the way it should be, without the gloves.
I've hurt you and now you yearn to make me suffer
The sweet words of solace I failed to muster.
I guess I must pay for tears you cried
But my tears are here--no longer will they hide.
I feel your pain and yearn to comfort you
But I am human & perfection I cannot do.
Maybe I should block it all out
And pretend those words never came out of your mouth.
Maybe act as though nothing is wrong
Like you never existed--Just move on.
How can I act like you never existed
When our lives are entwined, mangled & twisted.
We share the same goals, dreams and aspirations
I can't simply make believe you were just a figment of my imagination.
Oh--if only I knew then what I know now.
If only I could go back & change life somehow.
I'll never forget you and the relationship we shared
In my thoughts--you'll remain always, never a day spared.